Current mood:	disappointed
Current music:	Panic!

Finally DUN - done
So although I probably worked the hardest I've ever worked this entire semester, I'm most likely going to end up with straight Cs, which is thoroughly disappointing. I know that I'm completely overwhelmed with the other things I do (aka cheer, church group, APhi, etc.) but I love all those things and I don't believe in giving up on any of them. I mean, why would I give up the things I totally enjoy doing to be completely miserable with school and not having anything fun to distract me from that courseload? I just don't know what to do though. I cannot keep getting grades like this and doing as poorly as I do. It physcially makes my heart hurt because I put just as much effort as everyone else in this fucking ridiculous major (that I absolutely HATE HATE HATE); I stay up all night, I never sleep, I keep up with everyone else's homework grades, I just fail exams. It hurts because I know I deserve the grades everyone else is getting and I just can't take not being on top. I also hate giving up on things and absolutely refuse to change majors (which is a little too late now anyways), but if I had to do it over again I might have done things differently. All in all, disappointed in myself and my ability to achieve what I use to in high school.

On a lighter note: to all those who might care, I was just elected Vice President Chapter Operations (one of the two big VP positions) for my sorority. So I'm really excited about that, but I really hope I won't disappoint anyone!